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don't want to write, have nothing to dribble over anyway, but still feel obligated...

so yeah, another crazy week has come and gone. at least it's not hot. in fact, it rained... a lot. the other day. thunder and lightning. very very frightening...

got pretty sloshed this past week. can't remember much. hazy thoughts, flashbulb moments, faceless faces... debauchery, drugs, death-defying descent.

good times though and great company. i wish i hadn't opened my mouth though, it makes me feel extremely vulnerable and weak. i'm usually good w/ putting up a brick wall, but i do have moments of weakness - especially when in a drug/alcohol induced state, and inspiring muses.

just watched _last life in the universe_. it has made my top ten of movies watched this year. i'm simple. the movie was simple. i'm subtle. the movie was subtle. i'm obsessive. the subject matter was obsessive. i want to fall off this planet. this movie made me feel that.

i cleaned a little today. i thought a lot today. i've been having strange, lucid dreams that make me long for things unattainable... kinda like flying / levitating / drifting / dying... felo de se.

must try to sleep. back off, leave me alone. this takes full concentration, a concerted effort. i can't sleep. but i must.

np: you can live the dream by yunx

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